The Story Of Fear

This time last year I was going through a very difficult time and one morning in the midst of deep emotion, this story came to me. I observed it in my mind as the story played out, as it I was an on looker to my own thoughts. When it finished, I felt so moved by what I’d seen, I wanted to write it down, word for word, just as it happened in my visions. And this is the story. I named it The Story Of Fear, as this it what it’s about. ‘being’ free from fearing the world. Enjoy x


There was a massive brown bull stood in a field with a lead around its neck,

The angel said to the woman, stand close to the bull and hold on to its lead,

She hesitated. But what if the bull bites me, she said.

But what if it’s the friendliest bull in the world, said the angel.

I’m scared she said.

If the bull senses fear it may bite you, but if it senses joy it may not,

But how will you know unless you try, said the angel.

But it could kick me, trample me or even kill me, she said.

Or it could lick you to death, kiss you and be your best friend for life, helping you and guiding you along the way.



You must let go of fearing life, you must enjoy in, take each day as it comes.

Learn from the bad and enjoy the good.

Challenges along the way are not down to the world being against you or the bull biting you for no reason.

Things happen to allow you to grow.

When you relax things start to happen and beautiful things unfold in front of your very eyes.

Now go, hold the bull free from fear with love and joy in your heart.

The bull represents life, make friends with it, enjoy it, listen to it, see it, feel it, but most of all do not fear it.

Always remember the bull is your friend, love it, take care of it and cause it no harm.

You and the bull can walk together side by side, if you let it.



Inner Peace to True Love (The First Edition)

Welcome to my blog,

I hope you enjoy reading the things I share, the inside story of my life and my journey through inner peace to true love. Follow me as I learn and grow on this ever changing journey called LIFE . What I share comes from the heart, it doesn’t mean I’m right or wrong it’s just my thoughts and views on life, happiness, women, men and dating. If you can relate, feel free to share your story too.

How I came to be ‘Me’….

I never realized how much my life experiences impacted on my life until recently. In the last 10 years I’ve met people from across the globe, had random conversations with friends, family and strangers, online dated until it came out my ears, been on countless first dates, had relationships that were – lets just say dynamic and interesting, mixed with individuals from all social classes, experienced aspects of the good (and also bad) life and have had every job under the sun, which combined has lead me to this point in my life. 3 years ago I started suffering from anxiety, each day I felt overwhelmed, tired, stressed, disoriented and disconnected with life. I felt strange and was overwhelmed with how fast my brain would process information, which resulted in me no longer seeing the world in the same light. It felt like I’d woken up from a lifetime long dream. I tried my best to carry on as normal, working, dating and exploring the world as much as possible but each day I began to question my very existence in a detached haze. I started going back through my entire life trying to make sense of it and who I was, digging around, uncovering painful stuff, confronting my fears, laughing, crying and discovering the real me, who I really was and why things so far have happened the way they have. The last 3-4 years (in particular) have lead me to an awakening of what I can only describe as my soul. For the first time in my life I’ve been able to see what’s inside, beyond the good and bad times, beyond the emotions, to the core of who I am. When I saw who I was for the first time I think I cried with joy, wow, it felt so peaceful and amazing. Since then I’ve realized that everything that I’ve been through has lead me to this point and I have now discovered my purpose on earth – to help people unearth the happiness that lies within and help those truly happy individuals find love. I’m now a love architect and have made it my mission to help people find love and happiness however that maybe, through my own personal journey, trials and tribulations. The more I unearth, the more I will share to help others on their journey. I’ve discovered that the relationship journey starts with the person looking for love, not with tips on how to date.

Love, laughter, trust, honesty and great friendship I have learnt are some of the keys to forming and maintaining a long lasting loving relationship (amongst afew other things). The more I look the more I see that relationships are formed with each person looking for someone to complete them (their life) and once they’ve found the right person, they wait for all of the ‘keys’ to happen naturally. This can happen sometimes, but for many of us it takes alittle more hard work, trying, ups and downs and a lot of nice times to balance out the bad. But what not many people know is that relationships should be a free flowing partnership, that shouldn’t require as much work as we’ve been taught, if we establish a relationship with ourselves first. We often focus on working hard at all other aspects of life e.g. work, relationship, fitness, hobbies etc but not so much on our inner (emotional) wellbeing. This is where the hard work should start. A house is built on solid foundations and we (as an individual) are the house. If you try to build a house on foundations that aren’t solid, the house will fall down; the same thing applies to ourselves. We often attempt at building relationships, friendships and careers on unsteady foundations encountering struggles, difficulties and many failures along the way, but if we were to strengthen our foundations we’d have more success and an easier ride.

I’m making it my mission to grow, learn and discover the key to a happy and successful life/relationship. Join me on my journey through single life to a commited life and let’s heal our past, learn from our experiences and embark on the journey of true love together.